A Divine Mother
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June 9, 2025
Jupiter moves into Cancer today and we are excited! Jupiter, the largest planet in our solar system, is a planet that brings wisdom, expansion, and, sometimes, a sprinkle of luck where ever She is in the sky. This planet is considered to be EXALTED in the sign of Cancer, meaning she can comfortably do her job. Cancer, as we know, is big mama energy. So, in honor of exalted Jupiter getting cozy in the sign of the crab, I thought I would share a bit about my motherhood journey.
The Moon had just started her time in the sign of Cancer the night I was born. Here, She is most at home. Cancer is referred to as “The Divine Mother” (linked to a really great explanation of this archetype…) and in medical astro she rules the breasts and the stomach. Cancerian energy is nurturing, sensitive, emotional, HIGHLY intuitive. She is a homebody and extremely protective of herself and those she loves. The element of The Crab is water, and she is the ONLY sign of the zodiac that is ruled by the Moon. I love this about Her.
I often fantasize about my soul in past lives. Who was I? Where have I been? What did I do in those lifetimes that I am making up for in this one? My birth chart reveals some of this to me, and I think my body does, too. I have a birthmark a little left of center on my torso that I was never all that fond of. As a matter of fact, I have struggled my whole life with unpleasant feelings regarding my midsection. My stomach is soft, and even at my leanest, I’ve never had a defined abdominal area. I’ve always held a little extra padding around there and TBH, have always held a lot of extra shame for said padding. I was a card carrying member of the 1 piece swimsuit club, until the blessed tankini made her appearance. Crop tops? Absolutely not. I just HAD to cover up the hideous dark mark on my pillowy tummy… oh, the shame…
Anyways… back to past lives… I would have been tortured, burned at the stake, or hung for this mark on my stomach during the witch trials. A witch’s mark. A branding from the Devil himself. I used to be so embarrassed of this little patch on my stomach for some weird reason. Shame for being different, perhaps? I have to wonder if in some life I died durning childbirth, or possibly had a still born… or some kind of reproductive trauma. After all, my reproductive health and hormones have always been… ahem… shitty. I have endometriosis that has me doubled over in excruciating pain when I’m on my period . I tried to get pregnant for a long time, and even enlisted the help of a specialist to attempt conception and reproduction but, alas, it just wasn’t meant to be. My body did NOT want to get pregnant, but my soul longed to be a mother.
I consider this chapter of my life the ultimate lesson in divine timing. The lonely road of infertility; the anxiety riddled adoption process; the blessed birth of my son- all happened exactly how and when they were supposed to. I was meant to be a mom. Specifically, my little Scorpion King’s mom. He needed to grow in the womb of another to bless me with the gift of being his mommy. He wouldn’t be him if he grew from my body, and I’m so incredibly grateful for our journey and for the woman who held him in her heart and womb space until we could be together. The body I deemed a lemon gets to sip, hold and love on the sweetest glass of lemonade every single day bc of the way it “wouldn’t work”. Turns out, it was working exactly how it was supposed to for the soul journey our family is on.
These days I treasure my birthmark. It’s a reminder of my past life… a life where I felt broken and faulty bc of the vacancy in this space. The mental and physical pain I’ve experienced for an anatomy that functions in mysterious ways. I wear it with pride like a badge of honor.
The physical branding of my Cancer Moon. My witch mark. A token of a womb that needs to heal. A reminder that motherhood takes her shape in various ways in various bodies… that I am a Divine Mother.